Saturday, May 29
Holiday mood finally sets in, and here I am, facing one whole load of work undone. Hmm. Hafta really pack up. Going Kuching in week three. Can't wait.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:34 pm
Friday, May 28
What a boring day. Wouldn't have gone school if weren't for that chem practical test... Sigh. Holiday's finally here. Great. Now I don't know what to start on. No idea how I should go about studying. My table is piled high with papers that I should revise on, but nothing's coming to me. No drive, no mood, no... nothing. Sigh.
Posted by Isabelle at 8:12 pm
Wednesday, May 26
Wow, really slack today. Went for my last session of mentoring, and then for the first time in ages, went home alone. Feels kinda crappy, hadn't really felt like that in a long time. The rain just added to the downish feeling. Felt really bad. You know, it's just the sudden mood swing, when you are all alone, and the dreary atmosphere around you... Yeah. There was no one, and it was raining. Even the bus was practically empty. Lucky for that, I was feeling tired, and slept way home. But gave me a very good mood for mulling over things. Just nothing in particular. You know, the kind of solitary feeling... Hmm.
Posted by Isabelle at 8:17 pm
Monday, May 24
Restarted to play neopets... Oh my gosh... I'm so juvenile. But Fun what.
Posted by Isabelle at 8:43 pm
Thursday, May 20
Terrible physics test tomorrow. I don't know if I can make it through.
Posted by Isabelle at 8:49 pm
Wednesday, May 19
Slept until 9. Wake up. Eat dinner... Still very tired...
Posted by Isabelle at 9:47 pm
Tuesday, May 18
Long time since I came home this early. But feeling tired anyhow.
Posted by Isabelle at 6:34 pm
Monday, May 17
Just came back from meeting with a long-time friend, I think... for 3 or 4 years ba. Been at least a year since I last saw that friend of mine, and gosh, we had a lot to talk, things to update, and everything. Surprised we still had a lot of things to talk on, and how close we still feel with each other. Wasn't expecting that kind of a closeness, but yeah.
Went down to meet up, then headed off to the Monfort mac, and sat there for awhile, chatted, discussing how my skin was peeling. Yeah, gross, but you can't possibly miss that detail. (I'm still suffering from after effects of sun burn.) Felt wery good, and I'm really glad we still can connect.
I'm so happy that we met again today.
Posted by Isabelle at 9:51 pm
Sunday, May 16
Went to church. Watched Troy.
Posted by Isabelle at 8:01 pm
Saturday, May 15
Excuse me but can I be you for awhile
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah, I can hear that
Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say, you know, but nothing comes
Yes, I know what you think of me
You never shut-up
Yeah, I can hear that
But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey, but I don't care 'cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent all these years
So you found a girl who thinks really deep thoughts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts
Boy you best pray that I bleed real soon
How's that for thought for you
My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven where screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough
To get us there
'Cause what if I'm a mermaid
In blue jeans of his with her name still on it
Hey, but I don't care 'cause sometimes
I said sometimes I hear my voice
-- Silent All These Years
Posted by Isabelle at 4:41 pm
Friday, May 14
Friday's never been better. Relaxing day, no school tomorrow...
Posted by Isabelle at 8:14 pm
Thursday, May 13
Wow... Been going home late these few days. Yesterday went for sea carnival heats and then Bugis Junction to walk, today went bowling... So slack. Lol. let's see what we are gonna do tomorrow...
Posted by Isabelle at 8:36 pm
Wednesday, May 12
Really had a day without rest. School's as usual, but we had the sea carnival heats after that, and my class girls were so enthu about it they practically signed up for every event. Individually, Sophia and I went for the girls' double canoe, and not bad, second in race 2. Can't wait to see if we'll get in finals. Lol. Went for the class 24-men dragonboat race, and the 12-men girls' dragonboat race, and flopped in the first one, coming first in the second one. (Just see how power our girls are? Lol!)
What was most fun was that minidragonboat race. Nope, we aren't on a dragonboat! Oh man, can you imagine a doubles canoe supporting 4 people? Two inside, and the other two balancing on top of the deck, one in front, one behind. Caoz, somemore the canoe ain't stable at all, and I was sitting in front! Argh... It was so tipsy I had to wrap my legs around the canoe to prevent capsizing... but we got first anyway. Lol.
What a great day.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:38 pm
Tuesday, May 11
Finally a day where I stayed home. Was feeling kinda funny, and had gone into the kitchen to help out with my grandma. Funny huh? Yeah, what a mood. Never been the one with the wok and the slice, but yeah, really fried the rice we had for dinner today. And then suddenly I just thought of my grandpa, and how he had always cooked for us all those times before. No matter the occasion, even if it was just a simple meal, the dishes were great. All the time. Now it's just the three of us, and somehow there's no mood for a big cookout. More like takeouts and then have our own separate meals. Quite pathetic, but my grandma's getting on with age, and can't be expected to cook all the time. Reason why she cooked today was because I was home all day. Fried rice. Simple, but yeah, all the same, I cooked it with my grandma.
It's nice to be able to do that sometimes.
Posted by Isabelle at 9:02 pm
Tonight I feel close to you
Close my eyes, and feel your mind
Time has passed, I walked like a shadow
Never knew, what I’m going through
You touched my heart and take my breath away
Whisper on the wind so softly
Let the bright stars fill our dreams with love
Reach for your hand (Your hand in my key)
And you show me the way
Tonight I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one
(I wish we could stay forever as one)
All the tears that haunt my past
You promised
It’ll be better tomorrow
Play that song
You and I listened to
And let it gently ease our pain
Tender rain drops from the blue sky
Flowers blooming, Life’s so divine
Like sunlight on a stream (you’re holding my key)
You show the world to me
So much love in this beautiful world
Search for the brightest star in the sky
You will find the meaning of love
Don’t be afraid (Don’t be afraid)
Just be yourself (Just be yourself)
We need this love
I never knew
Posted by Isabelle at 10:29 am
Just took a step from school, and lazing back at home. Well, actually it doesn't sound that great. I'm just not mentioning the sunburns I have... Hmm. Just realised I've been on a treadmill so invisible I didn't know I was on one. Like finally taking a breather, then I realised I've been running for so long. Term break's coming, and I'm feeling that bit slack. Kinda looking forward to holidays, looking forward to going back Kuching.
Dreamt of my dad's place last night. Didn't know I was so attached to the area. Then realised I've been looking at my handphone's calendar every now and then just to check the dates. Man, I'm so homesick. Or it's just a place for me to escape to. Wish I could one day move over, but maybe a short-term break, maybe for a year, or six months, or three months... Just a break. Then I can continue with things here when I graduate, find a job... My life is here, no matter how I want to change it. But I know I still belong over at Kuching. I have a place there too.
I'm actually looking forward to completing my studies, so I have a better idea on what to do with my life. I'm now just floating around, waiting for tides to wash me somewhere. It's relaxing, but I can't always do that. I need at least a little control. Just to finish my A's, get onto U for 4 years, come back a grown woman. Can't wait to be there already.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:00 am
Monday, May 10
Wahaha... I'm burnt... officially. Crap, now feeling more like I'm on fire than anything. And I look so hot... in literal sense please. Oh gosh. So ever regret that kayaking trip. Damn the sun. I'm melting.
Posted by Isabelle at 9:29 pm
Saturday, May 8
Eee..... Just a slacky day at home.
Posted by Isabelle at 4:50 pm
Thursday, May 6
I don't wanna run!!! Shit, I'm sabotaged to take my friend's place tomorrow. That's shit man!!! 4 by 400 relay, and you expect me to run impromptu??!! Gosh. Shit. F***. Argh!!
Posted by Isabelle at 8:29 pm
Wednesday, May 5
Great. The Inland Revenue Association of Singapore was so fun. (My words drip with sacarsm.) What can I say? Ya, but sigh. At least I got home early today.
Posted by Isabelle at 9:51 pm
Tuesday, May 4
Still tired, but I shan't bother with that detail. I'm always tired, especially so these few weeks. Damn.
Yeah, finally went to snap off my hair. Er, ok, trim was more like it, and I hafta pay special attention not to let the person cut until it was very obvious. Shit, I'm still trapped in the darn bet my friends made about not cutting the hair... Sigh. I duly regret my past stupidity in letting myself land in the trap... Well. Barely trimmed it, but at least the weight isn't there. (It used to weigh a tonne. Now it's more or less half that.) Hmm. Better now, and more volume. I think I can face myself in the mirror again.
Posted by Isabelle at 6:42 pm
Monday, May 3
Wow. Yesterday went for that concert. Great, except I was damn tired. Good performance, and loved those little racial costumes the choir people wore. The band and choir had co-performed, but I still feel the choir was better. In fact, I was mainly there to support the choir. (Hehe... I'm still the choir person at heart.) Well, pity not many Xinmin people were there to see, coz the difference is damn big. The voices are all so power. Hmm.
Still so tired today. Ran ten rounds again today. Six at noon, and four in the afternoon PE. Quite cheong these days, but I feel better when I run, so might as well. PFT's the week after, so I'll probably rest next week, and run more when I can.
Have a lot of work uncovered. Sigh. Didn't really touch my stuff throughout the weekends. Very undisciplined. Really don't feel like studying. Gonna have a busy week. Learning journey, going to somewhere to waste our time looking at government departments, Sports day, Maths test...
Can't seem to concentrate this week.
Posted by Isabelle at 8:49 pm
Saturday, May 1
Got a small fry prize in the comp, not bad, since it's actually National, but what the heck, every comp I go to I see almost the same faces... Lol. And winning the same old prize. Wahaha. So you ask me why we have some many comps for? Frankly, I don't know. More prestige, if you ask me. Aiya, people want to hand you prizes, why not just take it? Lol. Went to knock some balls after that. Wow, long time never cued already, somemore this time it's with pro players. Can't believe their skills. Lol. Anyway, fun game, won all three rounds me and my partner played. Hehe. Not actually trashed the rest, but yeah, well-won rounds. Lol.
Can't really wait for tomorrow's concert.
Posted by Isabelle at 6:57 pm